Wish I were sleeping

The past week and a half has been challenging to me.  I know I won’t ellicit any sympathy since most of you work a steady job or go to school and have to wake up every day at the same time and make it work.  Well, I have never fit that mold.  If I weren’t self employed and had some flexibility on staying up late or sleeping in or whatever, I’d definitely get fired or live life miserably because my body does not like 24 hour cycles.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s sleep apnea since I can sleep for 8 hours (or more) and never feel rested, and I definitely snore.  And then there are times like now when I just can’t fall asleep regardless of how tired I am.  Other times I can be awake for 20 hours and still have enough energy to go on for hours without the faintest hint of feeling tired.  The more I think about what’s going on, the less I think it’s biological.

Today I wanted to go to sleep right away after returning from the class, but I had a few tasks that needed attention, and I did want to watch the Knight Rider premiere.  I still have two work projects that have to get done, but I was literally falling into “micro-naps” in the chair I was so exhausted.  So I delegated some work out and went to bed by 9:30.  It’s now 11:30 and I’m still awake.  No, the TV hasn’t been on.  Nor the iPod.  Just lying there, thinking about everything I’ve been learning in the Freedom Program, processing some emotions, and all kinds of other things going on in my head.  So now I’m back up, and may post an article or two that are on my mind.

~ by Daniel Koster on September 24, 2008.